EXCERPT
2:37PM,
Tuesday, April 28
Third Floor Apartment
Consulate General of Genovia
New York City
I don’t know what’s happening to me. I lie when I should tell the truth, and
tell the truth when I should lie.
Like half an hour ago, when Dr. Goldberg, the newly appointed
“royal physician,” was here, and asked if I’ve been under any “unusual” stress
lately.
I laughed and said, “Gosh, no, Doctor, none that I can’t think of.”
You would think Dr. Goldberg might have noticed the hordes of
paparazzi gathered outside the consulate doors when he came in.
But no.
Instead, he said I shouldn’t be concerned about the fact that my left eyelid
has been twitching pretty much nonstop for the past week, which is why I asked
for an appointment in the first place.
According to Dr. Goldberg, this sort of thing “happens all the
time, and is not at all indicative of a brain tumor or stroke.”
Then he suggested I stop putting my symptoms into iTriage, and
instead get “plenty of sleep and exercise.” Oh, and I might try eating
healthier.
Sleep? Exercise? Who has time to sleep or exercise? And how am I
supposed to eat healthier when I’m literally trapped by the press inside the
Genovian consulate and can only order food from places that deliver near the
United Nations (which are basically steak houses, Chinese, or gyros)?
It wasn’t until he was packing up his medical equipment that I
realized Dr. Goldberg was immune to sarcasm and really intended to leave
without writing me a prescription.
So I said, “The truth is, Doctor, I have been feeling a little
stressed. You might have heard about my recent family difficulties which have
led to . . .”
I pointed meaningfully out the window to the throng of paparazzi
waiting below. Dominique, the director of Royal Genovian Press Relations and
Marketing, says if we don’t encourage them they will go away—like stray cats
are supposed to, if you don’t feed them—but this isn’t true. I’ve never fed the
press, and they still won’t go away.
“Oh, yes, yes, yes,” Dr. Goldberg said, seeming to realize things were a little
out of the ordinary—like the fact that he was visiting me in the consulate
instead of seeing him in his office hadn’t given it away. “Of course! But your
father is doing very well, isn’t he? All the reports I’ve heard say that
he’ll most likely be given a slap on the wrist, and then he’ll be able to
return to Genovia. The press seem to find his little mishap with the law
quite amusing.”
Little mishap with the law! Thanks to my father’s decision
to take a midnight jaunt down the West Side Highway in his brand new racecar,
Count Ivan Renaldo, Dad’s opponent for prime minister, is ahead five points in
the polls. If the count wins, Genovia will be transformed from a charming
medieval-walled microstate on the French Riviera to something that looks more
like Main Street USA in Disneyland, with everyone strolling around in T-shirts
that say, Who Farted?, eating giant turkey legs.
“Oh, Dad’s doing great!” I made the huge mistake of lying (I realize
now). This is what we’re supposed to tell the extended family and the
media. It is not the truth. Royals are never supposed to tell the
truth. It isn’t done.
It’s for this reason that I think I’m losing my grip on my sanity and can no
longer tell the difference anymore between what’s real and what’s a façade for
the sake of the media (iTriage says this is called disassociation and is
generally used as a coping mechanism to manage stress).
“Wonderful!” Dr. Goldberg cried. “And things are going well between you
and—what is the young man’s name?”
I swear Dr. Goldberg must be the only person in the entire Western Hemisphere
who doesn’t know Michael’s name.
Is Michael Moscovitz the
world’s greatest lover? ‘YES!’ says sex-mad Princess Mia, declares the cover of this week’s InTouch.
Michael’s dad thought this was so
hilarious, he bought dozens of copies to give to his friends and even his patients.
Michael has asked him to stop, but his dad won’t listen.
“You really expect me not to buy
this?” Dr. Moscovitz asked. “My son is the world’s greatest lover!
It says so right here. Of course I’m going to buy this!”
This could be the reason for my
twitch.
“Michael,” I said to Dr. Goldberg. “Michael Moscovitz. And yes,
everything’s fine between us.”
Except of course since I’m being held a prisoner in my current home by the
paps—I had to move out of my old apartment last year on account of my stalker,
who calls himself RoyalRabbleRouser and likes to say he’s going to “destroy”
me. The consulate is the only building in Manhattan guarded 24/7 by
military police specially trained in the protection of a royal—Michael and I
hardly ever get to see one another.
And then when we do, we mostly just
lay around and watch movies on Netflix, because leaving the consulate is
such a pain, unless I want to hear all sorts of horrible questions hurled at me
on my way to the car:
“Mia, is that a baby bump
or did you just have too much of that falafel we saw delivered an hour ago?”
“Mia, how does it feel to
know Kate Middleton wore it better?”
“Mia, did you tell your
dad not to bend over in the showers?”
“Mia, why hasn’t Michael
put a ring on it?”
I tried to show Michael my twitch
earlier on Facetime, but he said my eye looked perfectly normal to him.
“If you’re twitchy, though, Mia, it’s
probably in nervous anticipation at the prospect of going out with me, the
world’s greatest lover.”
“I thought we agreed we weren’t going
to read our own press,” I reminded him.
“How can I help it?” he asked.
“Especially since my erotic powers seemingly extend all the way to the Upper
East Side, where they’ve rendered you sex mad.”
“Ha, ha, ha. You probably planted that
story yourself.”
“You’ve grown so jaded and cynical
since I last saw you. But really, Mia,” he said, finally getting
serious. “I think you’re just stressing too much about all of this.
I’m not saying things aren’t bad—they are. But maybe all you need is to get
away for a day or two.”
“Away? How am I possibly going to get
away? And where am I going to go that the press can’t follow me and ask
about my alleged baby bump or how my dad looks in his orange jumpsuit?”
“Good question. Let me work on it.”
I know he’s just trying to help, but
really, the idea of getting away with Dad in so much trouble and the country in
such an uproar and the election so close and Mom being a new widow and
Grandmère—oh, Grandmère!—as crazy as ever?
Plus my boyfriend having rendered me
sex mad, of course.
No. Just no.
But of course I couldn’t tell Dr.
Goldberg any of this. It’s like my lips have been frozen into a permanent
smile by all my media training (and compartmentalizing of my feelings).
“Well, that’s fine then,” the doctor said, beaming.
Fine? It’s so not fine.
Was it really so wrong of me to think that maybe, possibly, the palace
physician might give me a little something to keep my eyelid from jumping
around like a Chihuahua at dinnertime, or at least help me not lie awake all
night?
And then when I do manage to
fall asleep I have nightmares, like the one I had last night that I was married
to Bruce Willis, and whenever Bruce would get out of the shower, he would dry
off his penis while singing the song “Chitty Chitty Bang Bang.”
I can’t even tell Michael this. How do you explain it to the kindly old
physician they found who is still willing to do house calls?
You cannot.
“I’ll make sure the lab gets the blood
and urine samples you insisted, Your Highness,” Dr. Goldberg said. “I should
have the results in about a week. But I have to say that medically, I
doubt they’ll find anything wrong. Your pulse is strong, your skin tone looks
even, your weight within the normal range for your height. Despite this twitch
you say you have—which frankly I can’t see—and your fingernails, which I see
that you bite, you seem to be glowing with health.”
Damn! He would notice my
fingernails. I must be the only female left on the entire planet who
doesn’t get manicures because there’s nothing left of my fingernails to file,
let alone paint.
“Maybe,” I said, trying to keep the
eagerness out of my voice so I wouldn’t sound like one of those crazed
oxy-addicts on the now sadly cancelled Intervention, “I should be
written a prescription for a very mild mood stabilizer.”
“Oh, no,” Dr. Goldberg said.
“Nail-biting is a bad habit, but very common, and hardly worth treating psychopharmacologically.
The worst that could happen from compulsive nail-biting is that you might incur
an infection, or pick up a pin worm.”
Oh my God. I am never biting my nails
again. At least not before thoroughly washing them in antibacterial soap.
“What I suggest you try,” he added, as
he packed up his bag, “is journaling.”
“Journaling?” Was he joking?
He was not.
“Why yes, I see you’ve heard of it. Journaling has been shown to
reduces stress, and help with problem solving. My wife keeps what she
calls a gratitude journal. She writes down three things every day for
which she feels grateful, and keeps a dream journal, as well. She says
it’s helped tremendously, especially with her mood swings. You should try
it. Well, I’ll be in touch in about a week about that blood work. Good
day, Princess!”
And then he left.
Which leaves me here. Journaling.
Why couldn’t I have lied to make myself seem more pathetic so
he’d have written me a prescription for an anti-anxiety medication, or at least
a low dose sleeping pill? Even the veterinarian does this for Fat Louis
when I take him on the private jet back and forth to Genovia, and Fat Louis is
a cat. Why does a cat get tranquilizers but the expensive
concierge doctor we hired will not give them to me?
Of course if Fat Louis doesn’t take them, he revenge poops on
everything, which is extremely problematic, especially when going through
security (not that we have to do this because when you fly private they assume you
aren’t going to blow up your own plane and don’t X-ray you or your baggage,
which makes no sense. You would think by now that radical terror groups would
have caught on to this and bought their own Lear jets, but apparently
not).
But sometimes they still spot check you, even if you’re royalty,
and it’s quite embarrassing to have the cat you’re holding firing tiny brown
missiles at the poor TSA workers as you’re going through the body scanner.
But honestly, if a cat can have pills that turn him into a sweet, mellow travel
companion who doesn’t shit everywhere, why can’t I?
Oh, dear, I just read that over. I’m not shitting everywhere, obviously.
I just wouldn’t mind feeling a bit more mellow and getting some
Bruce-Willis-free sleep once in a while.
I suppose it’s typical of my luck that we have the one concierge doctor in all
of Manhattan who refuses to prescribe anti-anxiety medication. I’m sure
every other celebrity (and royal) is loaded up on them.
This would explain a lot about their behavior, actually.
But if “gratitude” and “dream” journaling really does help with stress, I’m
willing to give it a go.
At this point, I’ll try anything.
Let’s see. I already wrote down what I dreamed about. Here are
three things for which I feel grateful:
1 I don’t have a brain tumor.
2 My father didn’t die in that racecar incident. Though
given how reckless it was of him to have been in it in the first place, he
probably deserved to.
3 Michael, the most understanding, handsome, witty, and forgiving
boyfriend in the entire world (even if every once in a while lately I’ve
noticed there’s something going on with his eyes, too. Not a
twitch. More like something brewing in there. If I still wrote
historical romance novels—which I had to give up, because I do not have
the time for all that research what with all my public speaking and running the
center—I would describe it as a “haunted shadow.”)
I know it’s selfish, but I hope to God if there’s anything off
with him, it’s because he’s passing another kidney stone, like the one he had
last May—even though he said it was the most painful thing he’d ever
experienced in his life—and not because he’s thinking about breaking up with
me. I’m sure he’d like to experience a normal relationship with a girl who can
casually leave work on a Friday night to meet for drinks at a bar without first
having to have it checked for bombs or be escorted by bodyguards or followed by
a phalanx of photo-hungry press.
But I love Michael and I will seriously lose my shit if he dumps
me.
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